July 30, 2007
Another week, another, day, another hour, another minute. What will you chose to do with your time? My sister-in-law, Denise was over the other day and quoted me the title of this post. I liked it, she said she heard it on T.V. I don’t think I heard anything else after that, (sorry Denise), but those words spoke to me.
It’s so true. No matter how many times I have been shoved or pulled, I will move forward and not on my strength alone, but with my Heavenly Father’s help. My family and I are seeing better days. It’s amazing how God slowly reveals the whole picture to you day by day.
We went to San Antonio two weeks ago with every intention to view a listing of 10 houses I had researched. The realtor emailed me the night before and stated another house had just come on the market that day. She emailed me some pictures of it, it was beautiful, however I wanted to see it for sure before making a descision. We made arrangements to meet her at that one house before we moved on to see the rest. So we packed in the car, myself, Isaac, Denise and her husband. At first, we were like, “where in the world are we!” But then the long road led to several subdivisions where the neighborhoods looked friendly, inviting and peaceful. We then turned down the street where the house was located. Symphony music came on as we parked in front of the home. B-E-A-Utiful!!! We walked in and the outside was just as nice as the inside. A two-story, 2600 square foot home, with two living areas and a large kitchen. That is all I need!!! Needless to say, I fell in love. Here is the picture of our new home, we were approved last week. The move date is August 10th. Thank you God, I know the best is yet to come.
July 13, 2007
“Thy Word is a lamp unto my feet and a lamp unto my path.”
Psalms 119:105
This is the verse that sustains me. Yesterday was just one of those days where I felt everything and everyone was against me. To be a Christian is to endure hardships and to trust that God holds the answers. In the end these struggles will bring you closer to the Father, resulting in Him receiving all the glory and praise. Sometimes people get caught up in the glamour of it all, yet Christ is far from that. Some people get lost in image and “high stature”, yet forget every speed bump that allowed them to slow down and enjoy the fruit. Yes, people can be very disappointing, but I just have to be reminded that I live and serve an amazing God who will accept me for who I am. No family, no friend, no church, no professional could ever do what Christ did for me and for the rest of the world. It is to Him, I owe my gratitude, my heart….my everything.
God I see you, I feel you….you have not changed since the days of my youth. Revive the spiritual ferverence in my life as if were the day you came into my heart. I love you Lord.
July 12, 2007
Today was an awesome day. Isaac, I and the boys spend the day at Cole Park. The boys needed to get out of the house and have some fun. Little Benji is fearless. He saw a slide and immediately ran to it and slid down. 
Doesn’t matter how big or tall the slide is…he knows what a slide is for and he is determined to do it without any assistance. Benji, Benji, your smile lights up a room. Your giggles are so cute. I am so priveleged to be your mommy.
My little Solomon is a protective big brother, always making sure little brother does not get hurt. 
He is definately my eyes and ears when I am not present. He is so structured and considerate. His little phrase right now when I ask him if he is my baby is, “I’m your first baby!” I can’t help but to squeeze him and shower him with lots of love and kisses.
Daddy was teaching the boys how to make rocks skip in the water. 
Here are two more pics of the boys having fun with Daddy. 
Benji being sneaky!
All that running around sure did build up an appetite. We found ourselves at Whataburger by the bay eating upstairs. We then decided to head over the Harbor bridge, where Isaac took beautiful pics of “The Blue Ghost”, or the Lexington. While Solomon helped Daddy position tripod, Benji and I decided to take a stroll on North Beach. He did not want to feel the sand or water, he refused to be put down and clawed his little but sharp nails into my shoulders. I carried him for the stroll and he was a happy camper. There were so many people at the beach…ahhh summer! We called it an evening, went home, bathed the boys and they were out like cold logs. In my book, thats called a successful DAY!
July 11, 2007
Family time is so important in the Castillo home. Tonight before bed time, Isaac and I played with the boys in their room. Wela (my mother, Spanish for grandma) was even entertained with the toys. Oh, yes my mother lives with us. She is an interesting person. Funny thing, she hadn’t been a part of my life for years, but now I can’t seem to be without her. It really does help to have an extra set of hands around here, especially when you have a four year old bouncing of the walls and a 19 month old standing on top of the dinner table yelling, “mama, mama!!” Oh yes, the joys of motherhood! My honey is in a transition with his job so in the meantime he has been hanging out a lot more….kind of like a vacation….yes I like that! He is such a helpful husband and father, I thank God for him. I really don’t know what I’d do without him, he is truly an answered prayer. Someday I will tell the story of how we met and how God clearly spoke to the both of us affirming that we were meant to be. I love it! In the meantime, here are some pics from my beautiful family.
My honey
Look at those adorable smiles!
Father’s Day. We had a bar-b-q… of course!
Just me and my boys!
Enjoying a cute little park off of Ocean Dr.
July 8, 2007
Pain, heartache, and deception. Sadly, these are all too familiar to my heart. Once again they come un invited as they pull the rug from beneath me. I feel deception as it surrounds me in a midst and stops behind my ear and whispers, “I’m backkk!” So many thoughts and feelings that I have supressed come floating to the top as if to mock me. Comfort, what is comfort? Some people whine and cry to get comfort, others actually fight for it. Those who fight for it, their actions speak louder than words, which eventually brings great respect and dignity. Those who are all talk, their lack of actions will bring resentment and downfall. You see deception, the game has just begun. I know you, you bring the same lowsy tactics to the court, what you don’t know is that the ball is on my turf. And that ball is my Heavenly Father. Sure, I’m angry, sure I’m upset, but it’s a holy anger that will drive me to pursue things that I thought were impossible at one point. Just like before, if it were not for that anger I’d still be on the sidelines waiting for someone to give me a chance. No, not this girl!
