These past two months have really had some refining moments in both the lives of my husband and I. Back when I had posted my New Years Resolutions, little did I know that so much would be occurring this year, not to mention we are only half way through 2009. Although times can be tough, I believe God is teaching me the same lesson that he always does, yet every time there seems to be a twist that opens my eyes just a little bit wider. Even though I know that God is in control & that I must continue to have faith, its that patience that is tried just a little bit more and more each time. I know that God is making me stronger & putting me through the fire for a reason to ultimately rely totally on Him and give Him the glory in the end. I’ll admit, my character has been questionable at times. I know whole-heartily that God’s got this, but I have struggled with asking that pain-staking question of “WHY?” That’s taboo right? Sometimes I’m brought to my wits end and just want to throw in the towel & be miserable with my selfish feelings! I’ve been through so much that I think I would have a right to sometimes. Would it be easier? I think not! God’s timing is always perfect. As this draws out & my patience continues to grow smaller, God puts that very song, that soul-seeking song, that song that brings me to tears, that song that creates a lump in my throat, that song that brings back those reminiscent youthful, fervent years when I first met the Lord. At this moment I cannot help but to lift my hands while I am driving. That my friends is called hope, that is what it is to be in the Lord. Now I am no one to have it all together, can’t you just tell, but one thing I do know is that God has something planned and He’s working on something that is way out of my control. Something that I would not be able to achieve on my own strength. I am waiting, but I will keep busy to prevent little me from going hay-wire with all the hustle and stress of an average day in the life of me.
Signing out,
EC 
