July 13, 2007
“Thy Word is a lamp unto my feet and a lamp unto my path.”
Psalms 119:105
This is the verse that sustains me. Yesterday was just one of those days where I felt everything and everyone was against me. To be a Christian is to endure hardships and to trust that God holds the answers. In the end these struggles will bring you closer to the Father, resulting in Him receiving all the glory and praise. Sometimes people get caught up in the glamour of it all, yet Christ is far from that. Some people get lost in image and “high stature”, yet forget every speed bump that allowed them to slow down and enjoy the fruit. Yes, people can be very disappointing, but I just have to be reminded that I live and serve an amazing God who will accept me for who I am. No family, no friend, no church, no professional could ever do what Christ did for me and for the rest of the world. It is to Him, I owe my gratitude, my heart….my everything.
God I see you, I feel you….you have not changed since the days of my youth. Revive the spiritual ferverence in my life as if were the day you came into my heart. I love you Lord.
July 8, 2007
Pain, heartache, and deception. Sadly, these are all too familiar to my heart. Once again they come un invited as they pull the rug from beneath me. I feel deception as it surrounds me in a midst and stops behind my ear and whispers, “I’m backkk!” So many thoughts and feelings that I have supressed come floating to the top as if to mock me. Comfort, what is comfort? Some people whine and cry to get comfort, others actually fight for it. Those who fight for it, their actions speak louder than words, which eventually brings great respect and dignity. Those who are all talk, their lack of actions will bring resentment and downfall. You see deception, the game has just begun. I know you, you bring the same lowsy tactics to the court, what you don’t know is that the ball is on my turf. And that ball is my Heavenly Father. Sure, I’m angry, sure I’m upset, but it’s a holy anger that will drive me to pursue things that I thought were impossible at one point. Just like before, if it were not for that anger I’d still be on the sidelines waiting for someone to give me a chance. No, not this girl!
